Sound Bites, Issue 11: Cruser (she/her)
by Geneva Webber
ABOUT OUR AUTHOR:
Winner of the Gerald Stern poetry prize and the Joan Didion nonfiction award, Caitlin Cruser lives and writes in Western Pennsylvania.
NOTE FROM PROFESSOR DAVE NEWMAN:
Every few years, a new writer comes to Pitt-Greensburg and has the talent, the dedication, and the work ethic to re-affirm what a special place this is to be a writer. They achieve things in the classroom and on-campus that exceed either of those places. Cruser is that writer. She reads all the books, she shows up in class prepared with already-polished poems and essays, then she takes those things into the world. Her poems have appeared in New York Quarterly and, more recently, Blue Marble and Trailer Park Quarterly. She has an essay forthcoming in Moonlight. She sets the standard for what it means to care—about your own writing and reading, of course, but also for other writers and students on campus. She made a brilliant and artful video of a Marie Howe poem, and Marie Howe, famous poet and National Book Award winner wrote Cruser a glowing thank-you note. She’s the editor of Pendulum and has designed and produced amazing issues. She’s won the Gerald Stern Poetry Prize and the Joan Didion Award for Creative Nonfiction. She endlessly encourages her peers. Her peers endlessly bow down to her talent and effort. So do I. I love reading her poems and her essays; I love reading anything she writes. I am so lucky to have had her in so many classes and I am going to miss her and her writing terribly when she’s gone.
“three poems kind of about college” by CRUSER
two friends and I got haircuts on thursday
we sat in the chairs
capes on our shoulders
looking older than we ever have
my stylist
robyn
sprays down my flyaways
with a bottle of conditioner and water
she smells like cigarettes and rain
I close my eyes and she parts my hair
“my last day is sunday,”
she says
she will go to the next town over
to cut hair for 11.75
plus tips
“what are we doing today?”
she asks
in 5 months I’ll graduate
ceili will transfer
and cole will go back to south hills
but today
we are doing long layers
the scissors float around my head
and clipped hairs fall on my nose
behind me
cole has taken off his glasses
there’s an indent on either side of his nose
ceili’s stylist is holding her hair
to simulate curtain bangs
our eyes meet in the mirror
and she nods
when we are done
we pay
and leave big tips
we are both young
and old
both rich
and poor
we are alive
and we are friends
and we have new haircuts
what heaven is like
you are a kid again
and you spend 3 months allowance in an hour at the mall
your dad carries you in from the warm car
and for dinner: your favorite
the candles never burn out
and the bath water stays warm
you make lunch plans with your college friends
you kiss your girlfriend hard on the mouth
and spend the night in a twin sized bed
every book you read changes you
you find the right word
again and again and again
annie
annie can’t pay for college
but you wouldn’t know it
she takes expensive clothes off the racks
checks for security tags
before stuffing them in her wide tote
stitches ripping
annie works for a sandwich shop
but won’t call it a job
calls it something to do
besides drinking
and studying her anatomy notes
she gets a free sub and a bag of chips each shift
annie hasn’t paid for a book in 3 months
she hasn’t paid for facewash in 6
annie knows the workers don’t get paid enough
to follow her out of the store
because annie is the worker
and she doesn’t
and she won’t
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